Her presence. . . Her presence is something very special to me. When she is with me I feel like I’m living. I’m living a life. . . I feel like a complete being. Without her I’m not even half. Because she is not my better half but fullest of mine. With her, I forget all pains and loneliness. Her presence heals me. She is more than all types of medications and above meditation. She entered in my life, rehabilitated me, cured my heart and gave me peace of mind. She is the only one who can retain my living life. That I have now. . . I always pray and beg to Almighty that please don’t take her away from me. Don’t let my life scatter again. . . Not again. . .
بارش ہے، ٹھنڈی ہوا ہے اور حسین موسم تم بیٹھے بھیگ رہے ہو وہاں اور یہاں اکیلے ہم کیوں بضد ہو؟ بار بار بلاتے ہو اپنے پاس دیکھو بہت قاتل ہے ہوا اور خراب ہے موسم قطرہ قطرہ بارش کا لگا رہا ہے تن میں آگ کہیں اس رومانوی موسم میں نہ رنگ جائیں ہم کہیں یہ مدہوش کر دینے والا موسم نہ بن جائے بہانہ لپیٹ میں آئےان شرارتی ہواؤں میں خراب نہ ہوجائیں ہم خاموش کیوں ہو گئے؟ کچھ تو بات کرو اب مدہوشی میں نہ مل جائیں آنکھیں کہیں اور نہ گم ہو جائیں ہم نا ہو ختم شرم و حیا، نا گریں اپنی ہی نظروں میں ہم سنو خیامٓ! فون بند کرو، اپنے اپنے گھر ہی سو جائیں ہم
آج کا قاضی ہے اُلجھا ہوا بہت کر پانا اسکو انصاف ہے مشکل بہت محرم کے پاس نہیں دلائل بے گناہی کے مجرم کے پاس بچ نکلنے کے ہیں ثبوت بہت بھری پڑی ہے دنیا بے مثال اداکاروں سے اپنی اصلیت چُھپانے میں ماہر ہے ہر کوئی بہت قانون دان کیا کیا بنائے روکنے کے طریقے چور چوری کر جانے میں آگے ہے بہت قیمت نہیں اتنی کسی کی ایمانداری کی خریدارانِ ایمان کے پاس ہے سرمایہ بہت تم کیسے کر پاؤ گے مجرموں میں محرموں کا انتخاب؟ خیامٓ! اس منصبِ انصاف پر ہارے ہیں عادل بہت۔ ۔ ۔
Fantasy is always a dream, an extreme visualization like a vision. A vision that we can set but it is always unachievable. But on the way to achieve our vision we attain maximum of our life goals.
There is no another fantasy land that exists, where we can just go and enjoy but where we are right now, we have to make it fantasy land. For the fantasy life partner it is the same, like the fantasy life and vision. May be we a raw one, we have to give it a final touch. We have to cut the edges in right manner and bring into a desired fantasy shape. We have to give him/her space to adjust, to become nearly equal to fantasy. I said nearly equal to fantasy because we are not creator of universe, we are not God, we are not that Divine Power Who will assume and imagine something and it will happen and will become to existence as same. Our thoughts and imaginations can reach anywhere but in real we are limited in power to bring something in reality. We can dream and dreams can come true but all, cannot get attire of reality. About the person, we wish to be our fantasy life partner is also a human being but not an angel who will follow totally what God has said. He/she has limited flexibility to change, he/she can bend up to a certain angle otherwise bending one degree more can break him/her. It is not a sin to visualize unachievable vision but when it reaches to its maximum possible real shape we must accept it totally.
Coming back, you know what? This cannot happen in our life when we are looking to start together at once. One has to take first step, he or she has to start. He has to mold himself as her fantasy partner, like her dream guy, a visionary man and an imagined person.
I believe there are to ways to reach your destination or to obtain your goal. First one, you prepare yourself, run behind and do everything which can lead you to your destination. For example you get certificate and degrees, check all newspapers and websites for vacancies available, make resume` accordingly and submit them, you get well prepared for interviews and deliver your best in front of panel. You Get a job. Second one, you decide that what you want to be, one profession you choose as your career. Then you work hard to become irreplaceable in that profession, you are then know as expert of your field. What will happen the destination will look for you, instead of looking for job and submitting CVs to different companies, the companies will come to you with offers. Now, it depends on you which way you choose. I’ll definitely go for second one. ( I will write a detailed separate blog on this topic later. )
So, when he will take the first step and will make necessary changes to obtain a fantasy life and fantasy life partner then she will do the same too. And for sure then it will not be he or she but they will gonna live a fantasy life. . .
Look! Look here. . . See in my eyes. . . Just right this way. . . Don’t blink for a while, just think about me and close your eyes. . . (Both closed their eyes). . . Catch my mind’s frequency. . . Now just disconnect the call. . . (Call disconnected). . . He: Can you hear me? She: Yes! I can. . . He: Just think what you couldn’t say. . . She: I’m thinking. . . He: I can listen what you’re thinking right now. . . I can see your facial expressions too. . . Can you? She: Yes! I can too. . . He: This is how I interact with you when you’re not around. . . I feel you. . . This is the answer to your question that how I know when I’m not with you. . . This is the stage where souls meet. . . In fact our souls have merged together. . . Try to separate. . . You can’t. . . No one can. . . If our souls will be separated. . . Let me tell you one thing. . . The souls will not be same those merged together. . . But new version of two souls. . . Each will be consisting on half of mine & half of yours. . .
An imaginary character I built to fill up the blank space of my life. . . A place specified for my ultimate life partner. . . I picked perfect words to describe her and kept them in a treasure. . . A treasure, when I’ll open and present to her. . . Will describe her what I feel about her. . . Will tell her that no one else have ever told her about herself. . . The sterling words from the pure heart, arranged by help of mind. . . A flawless definition of her with the superlative degrees of vocables. . . It took years to collect pearls beneath the ocean of amour. . . A love of imagination for a clear unambiguous image. . . But when that imaginary character appeared in reality. . . When I saw you. . . I stuck in the moment. . . Just imagine when you face your imagination in reality. . . A period of being grateful started. . . Yes I have gotten my dream girl. . . I entered to my treasure of words. . . To describe you, to tell you that what you’re and what you’re for me. . . I’m hanging over there to arrange those words in such a way that I can express my feelings & emotions perfectly for a perfect partner for me. . . . . . . . . . . .
I am here to write and just to write. Whatever will come in my mind I want to write. It may come about anything from love, comic, work, motivation, poetry, novels, humanity or anything else. The purpose is to express feelings. But my main focus will be on expressions of love and affections because “Affection needs to be expressed”. . .